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Thursday, August 28, 2008 { 12:05 AM }

I'm sitting here in my room eating the cake my flatmate Valancy gave me. So sweet of her =D So filled with love =p

But her birthday's coming soon so what can I do??? I want something different for her haha.

I'm sure more stuff will happen later and already I'm having an unforgettable 21st birthday =D

Wednesday, August 27, 2008 { 9:45 AM }

Well, I didn't get the guest services nor front gate attendent job and apparently I'm supposedly suited for retail and have to go back for another interview next Thursday. Now exactly which part of me seems like I'm suitable for retail? I think that's the one job I'd suck most at. Come on, what else do I have to do but take stock, scan item, place item, passes item to customer and greets them goodbye. Oh well, shall just try my luck. Or hopefully the resort's still looking for people and I can work together with amanda.

I've heard many things which I would believe because it comes from more than a source. As much as I wanted the saga from back then(s) to not happen, apparently it's unevitable. Well, it'll just teach me how to handle people I guess.

Seems that I'm unable to learn from mistakes I guess. Time and again I get betrayed by people who I've felt could be trusted. Apparently not. We've came to a conclusion that it's a age gap thing, I'm a treat and I'm not humble enough. I treat people as an equal no matter what race nor gender.

Serious lack of sleep as the session went on till 5ish and I've barely 3 hours of sleep. Seriously, why bother with people you don't want to be friends with.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008 { 1:34 PM }

I know this is coming rather late considering the Olympics is over and all. Still I'd like to think that God is fair. I mean of course the top 2 countries to win medals would be China and USA but it's mostly due to their sheer volume.

But look at it, Australians are good at swimming, the Brazilians good at soccer, Chinese good at gymnastics etc. It's not exactly one country dominating the whole Olympics which I strongly believe that should be a fair playing field for athletics to compete and make new friends. Not for some political reasons.

Which brings me to my msn nick: people are the root of all evil. Isn't it true. If everyone were more simple minded and lived in harmony with each other. With no discrimination against the colour of their skin, the language that they speak, their gender, their height, their weight etc. There would be no need for nuclear weapons to prove which country is stronger. Which country should be claiming smaller countries. Which country should determine the fate of others.

There won't be a need for a hole in the ozone if we lived to protect the earth. There would be no businessmen having their business for the sake of money and ignoring how they're destroying the very place they live in. What good would money come up to if there's nothing left here for us.

Some said we should learn from history and never make the same mistake twice. What if we make an even more fatal mistake? What if it inspires others to do worse? All the many what ifs.

I believe that we can all live in harmony. All it takes is a little time spent to know more about the people around you. No stereotyping, more smiles, more laughter, more love.

Music is my choice of universal language because that is something everyone can appreciate. It doesn't require you to be rich, book smart, whatsoever. You just need to feel the music in your soul.

Me thinks I've used my brains too much so till next time. cyas

Monday, August 25, 2008 { 9:12 PM }

I seem to be cursed. Everytime I go somewhere unfamiliar for an interview I either don't get there or I've no way back. Spent $17 today to cab to Helensvale because I was given the wrong information, I couldn't follow my intuition (which was correct) as there wasn't any bus stop along the road I felt was correct and I ended up waiting for almost 1 hr for a bus that turned right in front of my eye and another 15 minutes for the cab I called.

@#$%^&*()(*&^%$E#E$R%T^Y&U*()

Anyway interview at Seaworld tomorrow *fingers crossed* That's my no. 1 choice where I would like to work at.

A few more day~

Wednesday, August 20, 2008 { 9:26 PM }

I'm fine actually, it just felt like a load off my heart blogging down my thoughts. At least I know that's what I want and I'd work towards achieving it instead of keeping it to myself and driving myself crazy.

Anyway I won't get beaten so easily. I'm strong and it'll carry on =D

The irony was that on the way for my interview today I was still thinking "hey, the sky's so nice and clear today. a nice start for a brand new beginning" but alas it was fated for me not to have went for the interview.

I even took the earlier bus so that I won't miss 725 at Helensvale but after waiting close to 45 minutes, the bus didn't come at all. I saw all the buses before and after but 725 was just missing.

Thinking it might be a few minutes late, I decided to wait and sadly missed the train to Coomera (near where my place of interview was). Thus I decided to take the bus to Coomera rail when it came and probably take a taxi there.

With half an hour to go, I thought I could still make it in time since I'd be taking a cab but it took so long to get through the line and the cab didn't come even after 15 minutes. Since it was already 3pm, I decided to head back and I missed the train by 3 minutes. -.- @#$%^&*(&^%$#@$%^&*

It was just fate. I should have just stayed home man.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 { 8:15 PM }

No more will I...
Call you
Message you when I get stomach cramps in the middle of the night
Contact you when I'm happy or blue
Check out for your news
Message you randomly
Think of you
Bother fulfilling our 2 years promise
Will I cry for you
Will my heart break for you

It's time for me to move on.

Move on baby girl,
It's such a beautiful world out there.

Let me cry this one last time and may I forget enough to move on.

解脱 - 张惠妹
爱是不夜城回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样又何苦再想伤
若让人成长我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔我总会实现一个梦

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

Monday, August 18, 2008 { 9:41 AM }

Heart's broken

jealousy, sadness, anger, betrayal, confusion

Did I make a mistake back then?
If I didn't why does my heart ache so.

Did you ever consider me your friend?
If so, why do you bitch so

It's all the different people in this world that makes me feel so.

People are the root of all evil. Not money.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008 { 11:01 PM }

Sometimes when you hear something about you, it just doesn't sit well in your heart. You want to ask more about it but yet it seems better not to know.

I felt it would had been better if you told me how you felt instead of just targeting me. Then again I don't feel I've done anything wrong. I'm single and available and it's my parogative if I choose whether anot to entertain. But as a friend you should know that 9 out of 10 times it's a rejection.

It only affects me coz I think of you as a friend.
~~But you know what, if it's not your style, you're welcome to leave~~

Tuesday, August 5, 2008 { 4:37 PM }

1) Join ** club - done
2) Take over ** club - plans in action, to be done by this semester =p

Haha, once again Amanda and I are so bored we plan to take over the school, starting with one club lol. Lameness, I know. But at least it's something to look forward to =p

Celebrations on Friday for a special girl =D More of it when it's nearer. Heading to Brisbane for Reji night and not forgetting 'live' telecast of NDP 08 in UQ. Patriotic ey =p

I want to get work soon so I can earn money!!!

Monday, August 4, 2008 { 10:15 PM }

First call for interview on Thursday and I think I pretty much got the job considering she asked if I got a hospitality uniform and me think I can try asking them to train me in the bar aspect. Seems that my resume was pretty impressive with my experience in housekeeping, f&b/banquet and a little bit of bar. Then again it's mostly for events so my pay probably won't be so regular.

Hopefully pay's good and I can clock at least 10 hours a week and I'd be set to settle my own allowance as well as my year end trip where ever it may be.

Is there something about economics or what coz my class and lecture seems to be flooded with asians. Don't really like the tutor coz as a chinese she pronounced my name as "Long Su Ting" -.-

I thought I've changed the records for my name to be Estee Leong but still, how can you pronounce Leong as Long??? Insult to my family name can.

Anyway let's hope all's well for my job aspect so I can save up the money for future purposes.

Sunday, August 3, 2008 { 6:27 PM }

Dreamworld yesterday was fun, what better company than with amanda =D. Had fun staring at the tigers at tiger island and they're just so beautiful. Saw a normal bengal tiger, a white bengal tiger and a butterscotch coloured bengal tiger during the show. Of course not forgetting the cute 6mth old Sali who loved running up and down along the glass panels looking at everyone and the 3 3mth old female tiger cubs.

Saw quite a few animals like wombat, dingo, crocodile etc. Took many photos whilst trying on the cowboy hats. Had our wanted dead or alive photos taken and not forgetting our fairy house. The tiaras here are so pretty! Much better than those sold back home.

Watched some IMAX show about astronauts and cosmonauts building the space station. The various parts are made all over the world and are tested in Russia and Florida if I didn't remember wrongly. Its so cute to have your shaver float beside you while shaving or even breaking up your water 'bubbles' before 'drinking' it.

Headed to surfers to wait for the rest for our 2nd itinerary. We were so bored while waiting we played the arcade again, of course cheating by playing kids games =p, old school virtual cops, basketball and house of the dead.

Had dinner at this korean place after that and it was good. Lots of side dishes as well so it is rather affordable. Wish they didnt put so much chilli powder in the soup though.

Night was rather okay except for couples who 1) like to hump each other really vigorously, 2) couples who try dancing ballroom style. Rather pissed off at some point of the night, ended up getting leg cramps coz I was wearing my shoes for the whole day and it really hurt. Changed club after a while to find that it's trance also and it was so humid and stuffy I felt faint for a little bit. Headed back and it was nice to have someone drive us home =D. Always good to make more friends.

School tomorrow. Better do my readings.

Friday, August 1, 2008 { 9:24 PM }

It's been so long since I saw a starry night on the way home. Lectures ending at 6 looks like the middle of the night in Singapore.

1st Aug, start of 7th month. If we chinese believe the gates of hell (if people goes to heaven, then why is it the gates of hell that's opening?) open for a month every year to feast, then when's the equivalent of 7th month for caucasians? If we only pay respects (and in a way feed ghosts) during 7th months and special days like birthdays, what do they live on for the rest of the year? If one were chinese but migrated overseas and passed away there, will that person also be 'feasting' during the lunar 7th month? If so, is there 7th month here in Aussie, right now?

And another thing, why do I feel hotter sleeping in shorts than in long pants? Weird weather ey.

Dreamworld tomorrow! Can't wait. And and and, Valancy dated me out for the evening. Coolness =D